Jehovah Jireh - The Lord our Provider
God has provided for us time & time again, and certain things really stick out to me since Madison has been born. When Jake & I first got married, we were so tight with our money and some months cut it pretty close until our next paycheck came. And we both had full time jobs at this point! But we always have given our tithe, and that's something that we have always been on the same page about. Fast forward to the time Madison was in the hospital for a couple of weeks, and as this was at least her 4th hospital stay in 4 months, I told Jake I just couldn't do it anymore. I needed to stay home with her. With no plan, no time to save up any money or put a safety net in place, I quit my job & stayed home with Madison. We had no idea how we were going to make things work, but we continued to tithe & at that point had to give it over to God.
The crazy thing is... We have never missed the extra income that came from my full time job. We have never had a month where we didn't know how a bill was going to get paid, or how we were going to fix something that had broken. Time & time again God has provided. Whether it was a gift from family, an unexpected bonus, a bill that came in less than expected, etc. We no longer are so tight with our money when opportunities to help others come up. Can we always do more... YES! But some of the things we have been able to do have been such blessings to us.
Just in the last couple of weeks God has once again shown He is in control & He will provide. We have been trying to get disability for Madison for several months now (for the 2nd time), and we have been denied based on income - even though we are expecting being out a lot of money this year for therapies for Madison. Through the whole process, I have told myself that if it works out great, if it doesn't we will make it work. I wasn't going to stress over it. I have had a few moments of stress of course, but not like I thought I would. Unless something with our financials change, we won't be able to get disability. We also aren't 100% sure if insurance is going to cover any of her speech therapy - there has been some confusion on that. We thought she would get 20 sessions covered under insurance, but that may not be the case since it's not for rehab or autism (even though she has apraxia, epilepsy, CP, genetic abnormality, etc.). The apraxia may allow coverage, and we haven't gotten any bills yet, so hopefully she will be able to be covered for those 20 sessions. We are currently on her 21st session and have started self pay. We found out a couple weeks ago that she received a grant we applied for at the beginning of the year from Small Steps in Speech for $2,000! So that will cover about 16 speech sessions! Right when our 20 insurance visits run out, we hear news of the grant... all thanks & glory to God!
I've talked to several people (even people I don't know very well), and they always tell me they will help any way they can. And I so appreciate people's kindness & willingness to help. However, I'm always so happy to share with them how God has provided for us, and how He continues to. And I pray that when things get tough (because they will), I will remember that God is in control and He gives us everything we need. (Really much more then we need)!
